Rough week. Not gonna lie. One particular issue had me restless and heavy-hearted for a few days. I started to write about it here, but then I stopped. I really want this to be a place of comfort and peace. A place that makes me happy to reflect back on it years from now. And if I can do that for someone else too, even better. I may write through some things I’m struggling with from time-to-time here, because I’m searching for answers and it always helps (me) to process it in writing … but not for now.
Whenever I’m feeling like I’m mentally carrying too much, it helps me to create something. (So what does THAT say about this week and the fact that this blog was born just Monday?! LOL!) Wednesday … it was homemade raspberry jam. I usually make a batch that lasts all year, but sometime in March we ran out. (Insert minor panic attack.) It takes a lot for me to go buy preserves at the grocery. I’m just spoiled on homemade.
There is this magic that happens with the process of taking fresh fruit, cooking it down to a deep ruby syrup then ladling it into crystal clean jars to “put up” for the cold days of winter that we know won’t be far away. That color. I just want to wear it. (Okay, maybe I was wearing a little of it.) And the smell. That smell is summer, the earth after a spring rain, sun-soaked days running barefoot with my friends and playing tag in the fields near my childhood home … all boiled down into a nectar unlike anything else on Earth.
Once everything was cleaned up, I just had to sit down with a jar and some crackers in the dining room and savor a little. This is when I’m happiest. This is when I’m so grateful. This is when I’m true to who God made me to be.
I think we all get so caught up in what we’re going to buy next or who we’re going to impress or which award/ title/ accolade we want that we overlook the few things we really need to be happy. Something as simple as making jam makes me feel useful, fulfilled, creative, grateful. Happy.
“For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.” ~Matthew 6:21